I can’t believe that I will be THIS old in one week:
Yeah…I won’t be THAT old, but you know what I mean. I used to think 48 was ancient. Now it seems like just another year. Trying to make every year the best year ever is getting exhausting. So, I’m just going to try to make this year a good one. Simple. Some things I want more of: reading, time outside, travel,exercise, and fun. I have not really been having as much fun in my life as I would like to. I need to let loose. I find myself constantly on guard. I really can’t explain why. And sometimes it isn’t even conscious. I want to let that go. So, I’m hoping to make year 48 my year of “letting loose”. After all, if you can’t let loose at age 48, when can you let loose? And letting loose will not include a bunch of “goals” and “plans” and such. That isn’t very loose is it?
Now, I’m not going crazy and quitting my jobs or anything, so I still need my planner. And I still have a 7 year old, so there is school and activities, etc. But, I don’t need to feel tied to my laptop and constantly playing catch up. It will take some “planning” to make it work, but it doesn’t have to be a list of action items that I check off as the year goes by or specific goals that I end up giving up on and then being upset about my “failure”. The major requirement is getting off my couch and out of my comfort zone. There are a ton of opportunities for fun, but I choose to skip a lot of them for some unknown reason. So, this year, I will embrace the fun!
I think that as we get older, we sometimes lose our capacity for joy. We let things get in the way of us experiencing joy when and where we could. We have so much baggage that has built up over time that we have problems setting it down so we can enjoy the fun. If we’re weighed down with problems and past wrongs and frustrations and all those bags are so heavy, we can’t focus on enjoying ourselves. So, maybe the key is to set our bags down at the door and take a load off! That will be what I try to do at each and every opportunity this year – set my baggage down, no matter how difficult it is to pile up at the door and let go of it all! Because taking that load off will allow me to loosen up and enjoy myself. And who knows, maybe I will find a way to leave some of it behind at each occasion. A small package here, a piece of baggage there and I will feel less weighed down all the time!
So, here is to my year 48! The year of embracing the fun, letting go of the baggage and doing the things I want to do while still getting done the things I need to do.