I am joining in for the first Five Minute Friday of 2017! I’m excited to get started writing more consistently this year (and hopefully building my blog into something “more” as well) and Five Minute Friday is always a great exercise with a wonderful community along for the ride. This week’s prompt is “Connect”.
Well. I am finding it somewhat difficult to connect to the prompt connect. I’m just not sure where to go with it. A lot comes to mind. Connecting with others. Making connections in my life. Connecting the dots. But, none of it is really driving me to write about it. So, I guess I’ll write about how sometimes, it is difficult to connect with other people and things and that it is okay for that to be the case. We would not appreciate the times when connections were strong and meaningful if those types of connections were constant and consistent.
I often have problems making close friends for example. I just don’t connect with others as much as I would like. And it isn’t for lack of trying. But, when I do find someone I connect with, I feel it strongly and that connection is there whether we are spending a lot of time together or just a few minutes here and there. I feel the same about entertainment and activities. I don’t often feel strong connections with TV shows or movies or exercise programs. Others seem to find something and really connect with it and loooooove it. But, I don’t as often. I connect with things from my past more than anything else. Perhaps that is where I have my strongest connections – to my past.
That’s it. I feel that this week was tough. I’m not sure why. It has been a long and somewhat stressful day (although I didn’t do much). My DD is not feeling well. And although she isn’t feeling horrible either, she did start running a fever tonight and with her past, I seem to be in a bit of a PTSD anxiety attack. It isn’t horrible either. I’m not panicked or anything, but I do feel a bit of trepidation about planning and what is going to happen. In all reality, she will probably get better in a couple of days, without any complications. We went to the pediatrician today and her lungs sounded good, she had nothing in her ears, her throat didn’t look too bad and she was negative for strep. So, all good signs, but then she spikes a fever. It just makes me wonder what is going on in that little body of hers. And, in reality, it is probably nothing but a normal 7 year old virus that is running its course. But, in a heart transplant recipient, it doesn’t ever seem like a virus or illness is normal or can just simply run its course without some concern.
So, I’m watching what I connect with – Poirot – on Netflix. I’m waiting for the coming “Storm of the Decade” here in California, which should be hitting any time now. I’m intermittently cleaning and organizing and purging. I’m looking forward to a weekend of quiet and catching up and preparing for Spring 2017. My DD is supposed to go back to school on Monday. We will see how she is feeling. But, I don’t have to worry because I’m not working next week! We are scheduled to go to heart clinic on Tuesday, but with the illness/fever happening this weekend and the storm of the decade hitting, I think we will be rescheduling that. So, that sets us up for a relatively quiet week ahead as well. I can connect with that…