The truth is, I am exhausted. I am feeling quite overwhelmed. I am wanting a life different from the one I am currently living. It isn’t the first time I’ve felt this way. If you’ve read much on this blog, you know that this is a regular thing for me. The question I have is why? Why can’t I get my life in check? Why can’t I rest? Why can’t I stay organized and get things done in a timely fashion? Why can’t I live a better life? Why, why, why? I’m not sure, but something has to give. Tomorrow is March 1, 2017. I am in my “later years”. Hell, I’m almost 50. I don’t like to say that, but it is true. I feel old. I feel tired. I feel like maybe I’ve created a life I can’t live up to. I have an eight-year-old. I am a Girl Scout troop leader. I have one and a half jobs and coach a competitive intercollegiate speech and debate team. So, where do I start? How do I create the life I want instead of drudging through the life I’m currently leading? That is the question.
I guess the first step is figuring out what I want my life to be like. Here is a brief snapshot:
- Time to rest and relax, including sleeping well at night for between 7 and 8 hours and downtime each day.
- A clean house that feels welcoming and comfortable.
- An organized life that has me getting things done before their due instead of after their due.
- A healthy lifestyle that includes eating healthy and exercising.
- A family-focused life that has us spending meaningful time together and enjoying each other.
- A financially secure life. Period.
This list reminded me of my 2014 new year’s goals. Although some of those areas have improved (friends is the one that has really improved a lot and knowledge is pretty satisfying at this point), most of those areas are still struggles for me. It isn’t hard to figure out what happened to these very well thought out resolutions in 2014 when you read the bottom of this post where I talk about my Dad’s health. He passed away soon after that in 2014. At least I’m not going through that this year. So, maybe these five life goals will work out.
Right now, I need to go to bed if I am going to have any chance of meeting the first goal (the rest are already a bust for today, but maybe I can get one in!). So, good night. Wish me luck as I “march” into the future this March.