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Tuesday Truth: Exhausted, Inspired and Lost – Can I be them all?

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I feel like I’m suffering massive mood shifts this week.  I’m not sure what is up, but here are some of the feelings I’m having:

Exhaustion.  I don’t know why.  I have been sleeping plenty.  But, I don’t think I’m sleeping well.  I am scheduled for an MRI on my shoulder on Thursday for a possible rotator cuff or torn ligament and it bothers me when I’m sleeping.  So, that might be playing a part in it.  In addition, I have my 8-year-old DD, my 100 pound half lab, half shepherd and now my 60-pound bulldog sleeping in my bed with my husband and I.  They are cute, but not comfortable:

Seriously, space in my bed is at a premium.  I find myself getting really tired in the afternoon/early evening as well.  But, that could be from my food intake not being particularly energy producing.  I need to take better care of myself in a lot of ways.

Inspired.  I am at one of those times in my life where everything is inspiring to me.  I am listening to podcasts, reading articles online, doing online classes, etc., etc. and all of them are inspiring to me.  I want to do EVERYTHING better.  I feel like I CAN do everything better.  But, then there is the first thing – I’m exhausted.  So, I attempt to do some things, but I can only get so much done before exhaustion kicks in and slows me down.

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At least I know I’m not the only one.  I can’t focus on any one thing because I want to do it ALL!  The Ultimate Bundle calls my name, but I want to do a little of everything.  I want to listen to all 70+ podcasts from Cult of Pedagogy so I can teach better.  I want to read ALL the blogs on productivity.  I want to do all the side gigs.  I want to do DIYs.  But, obviously, I can’t do it all.  And I find it difficult to prioritize the things.

Lost.  This is something that comes and goes.  This past Sunday was Mother’s Day and it was the second one I have not had my mom to celebrate with.  That makes me feel a bit lost.  I also often feel like I’m missing my identity.  I used to be an athlete.  Then I was a debater.  Then I was a debate coach.  Then I was a mom.  I am still a debate coach and a mom.  But, I am more than that, yet I often feel like I am less than that.  I used to be a daughter, but now my parents are both gone.  I am a teacher.  I am an animal owner.  I am a girl scout leader.  I am a woman.  But, what does all of that mean?  Who am I, REALLY?!?  I’m not always sure.

So, I guess the answer is yes.  I can be all of those things.  I am all of those things.  Now, what to do with that.  I want to be less exhausted.  I want to continue to be inspired, but also be motivated.  I want to feel less lost and be more sure of who I am.  I want all of this.  I’m just not quite sure how to get it.


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