I am joining Five Minute Friday again this week. This week’s prompt is “excuse”. Here goes:
This seems like a particularly meaningful prompt this week. I have had a rough couple of weeks. Really, a rough couple of months. Although many things have gone well, other things have gone off the rails. And for each thing that goes off the rails, there is always an excuse for the departure. I took on too much. I don’t get enough help. I am just not an organizer. And all of them are based on some truth, but all of them are also things that could be overcome. I just find myself overwhelmed and exhausted quite a bit of the time, but I also fail to make the choice to eat better, go to bed earlier, exercise and do all the other things that could make me feel better. If I stopped making excuses for not doing those things, then I probably would not find myself overwhelmed and exhausted and I could do everything I want to do without pain or suffering. So, why don’t I do those things?
The answers to that question would be simply excuses if I didn’t say, “because I choose not to.” That’s it. The simple answer. I choose not to. Not anyone else. And it isn’t forced upon me. I CHOOSE not to do those things. Why? Partially because of habit. It is not my habit. Partially because I have a self-destructive tendency. It almost feels like a rebellious act to eat poorly and stay up late. Unfortunately, I’m a rebel without a cause. It doesn’t do me any good other than to make me feel like I’m bucking the system. Which sometimes, just bucks you right off in return.
Well, that was five minutes. But, I feel the need to DO something about what I just wrote about. I want to change this behavior. I don’t want to be a rebel without a cause anymore. I want to do things that are good for me. I want to take care of myself, which will allow me to better take care of others. So, I’m going to commit to doing better. This week, I will start slow and simple:
- Be in bed by 10 p.m. If I am not tired enough to go to sleep, I can read. I bought a book light so I can read while others sleep around me. Reading tends to put me to sleep rather quickly, so I think it will be good for me to do this each night.
- Eat a serving of fruit and/or vegetable at each meal. This one will be a little more difficult. I often skip eating fruits and vegetables at meals. And lately, I’ve been eating pretty poorly.
- Drink water. I have always been one to avoid water. I don’t know why. But, I suffer from regular headaches, irregular digestion, and exhaustion. All signs of dehydration. So, I will try to drink water each day on a regular basis. I will aim for the 8 glasses of water that is suggested and see how I feel.
That’s it for this week. Starting tonight. So, I will be heading to bed in 35 minutes. I don’t think I will need much to go to sleep tonight. I’m exhausted.
Tomorrow, I will start my day with a glass of lemon water and a fruit smoothie.
Now, I have a plan to at least get through tomorrow morning without breaking my commitment. Momentum. We’ll see how it goes from there.
“Freedom is not the absence of commitments, but the ability to choose – and commit myself to – what is best for me.”
― Paulo Coelho,