I failed…a January update

That’s right.  It is January 2 and I have already failed miserably at something.  I’m admitting it right here and now.  I am at my in-laws as planned and I am typing this ON MY LAPTOP!  That’s right.  The laptop I was going to leave at home.

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I was also on my phone tonight while others were in the room, which is an area that I really want to work on.  If I don’t absolutely NEED to be on the phone (e.g. our dogsitter texts me with a question or something), then I don’t want to be using it.  But, there I was, scrolling through Facebook.  Sigh…

I am addicted.  My DD took it really well when I told her I wanted to use this trip as a “reset” on our technology use.  She left her beloved 3DS at home.  And although we brought the iPad Mini, she barely used it in the car on the way here and did not ask for it once tonight after we arrived.  Yet, here I am, reaching for my phone and feeling the need to be on my laptop (and although it is nice for blogging, that is not what I originally got on here to do – I just felt like I NEEDED to be on here, checking email, responding to requests that do not have to be responded to, revising syllabi that don’t need to be revised tonight, etc., etc.).  I really need to be reading the books I want/need to read.  I should be journaling, by hand in my notebook that I am starting for this year.  I should be interacting with others.  I should, I should, I should…

So, tomorrow I WILL!  I am making a commitment to not look at my phone unless I have an incoming message that demands attention (example above).  I will not use my laptop until everyone has gone to bed and then only possibly – to write a blog post and/or deal with any issues that arose that may need to be dealt with (which I don’t see happening, but I guess it could).  I can get back to tech on Friday when we have returned home, but I really need a good detox.  Seriously.  This is going to be a little painful and difficult for me.  But, as usual, my DD has set the example.  She is perfectly fine without her tech because she has her cousin and Gigi and Papa and coloring and such.  I need to focus on what I have outside of tech to entertain myself.  I knew my desire for tech was getting a little out of control, but this has really raised my awareness of just how bad it is.  And I really want to get it under control.  Here is an article with some tips for helping me…maybe you need it too?

 

Countdown to 2015 – FOUR!

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Well, four days until 2015 now.  So, as I said earlier, I thought I would choose a word or phrase for 2015.  It is a popular notion nowadays.  There is My One Word, One Word 365, as well as many one word challenges out there on blogs.  I am not sure I like the idea of having to choose one. single. word.  That seems tough.  But, I can probably reduce it to a short phrase.  Maybe I can find a word…and yes, if you have not figured it out, I have yet to choose a word or phrase.

I like the rhyming scheme idea – like “Long and lean in 2015.”  But, I don’t want to focus on losing weight, so that doesn’t make any sense for me.  “Don’t be mean in 2015.” seems a little negative, and I’m not really mean all that much anyways.  Actually, “Less screen in 2015.” may be on point.  I want to be on the laptop less, watch less meaningless TV, get my daughter off the iPad and watching less TV, get out more, read more, do more.  So, that may be it right there.  I like it.  Easy to remember and will cause me to question myself or her every time we go to turn on the computer, iPad, TV, phone, etc.  There is just way to much screen time in our family.  Both my husband and I use work as a reason and it sometimes is, but we could be a lot better at managing our screen time for sure.  So, there it is…my phrase for 2015:

Less screen in 2015!

And I think to follow that up, if I have to have some kind of one word I will use “Recalibrate”.  I think I’ve focused too much on changing myself in ways that I don’t really need to/want to in the past.  When really, I need to get back to some things I’ve left behind (e.g. my love of reading, my activeness) while still maintaining my overall self-identity.  So, I like the idea of recalibrating.  It allows for some “measurement” but doesn’t indicate that I need to find a new measuring stick, just get back to an old one that worked for me.  It may bring in some new things as well – to increase the precision or make the use of the measurement more efficient, but overall, it is the same tool and the same thing being measured.

So, there you have it – I have a phrase and a word.

What about you?  Do you pick words or phrases or make resolutions for the New Year?  Or do you just ignore the whole thing and treat it like any other day of the year but with a new number on the calendar page?  I would love to hear your ideas in the comments!

Countdown to 2015 – FIVE!

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Five days until 2015 rolls into town.  It seems like the years go by in the blink of an eye.  I know that is quite cliche, but it is true for the most part.  I don’t feel like I’ve lived five years since coming home from the hospital with Bean and her new heart, but I have.  I can’t think of a New Year’s Resolution that I’ve really been able to keep in all those years.  I never was much good at keeping them, and now it seems like the possibility is nil. So, instead of making “resolutions,” I’m going to simply establish some things I’d like to do/be in 2015.  Five things…to go along with this countdown.

First, I would like to read more books.  I’ve been saying this for years.  The laptop has created a vortex of reading for me.  I only read blog posts and articles online for the most part.  But, I used to be a voracious reader.  I remember when I was little, I would sneak a flashlight into my room at night so I could read under my covers after lights out.  I carried a book everywhere with me.  I loved to read.  The library was one of my favorite places.  I still love the library, but I don’t give myself the focused time necessary to read books.  But, this year, I am setting a goal to once again become a reader.  Perhaps not voracious, but a regular reader.

In order to do that, I will have to do number two – get off my computer!  I have to really force myself to do this.  I get sucked in.  And I feel like I will miss something.  But, in reality, I am missing other things while on the computer.  So, for the new year, I’m going to institute a no-screen time in my life each day.  It will have to vary according to my schedule, but for at least three hours a day, while awake, I will be screen-free.  This will give me time to read, play with my DD, watch TV without the distraction of the laptop in front of me, etc.  This is something that is truly going to take discipline – something I often lack – but, I’m going to work at it.

So, the first of five goals for 2015 is to read more books and less online.  I love reading blogs and such, but I want to make time of other types of reading as well!

Weekend Away…

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I am taking a weekend away from the laptop…well, mostly.  I am posting this to let you know that I am taking this last weekend before work begins again for the Spring semester to (1) celebrate a 2nd Christmas with my in-laws, (2) do some outdoor activities since the drought is making that totally possible in Cali, (3) enjoy the fact that I don’t HAVE to be on the computer much right now (since my life usually revolves around it).  I have opened my laptop for the first time since leaving home yesterday tonight at 10:30 p.m. and I plan to leave it closed until at least that time tomorrow – and may not open it at all – and then Monday we will spend most of the day on the road home.

Once there, I will be back in the swing of things – so expect a To-Do Tuesday post at the latest, but don’t be surprised if you don’t see something before then!

Hope you all are enjoying your weekend – especially the people around you!