Well, I am not caught up. I am still way, way behind in grading. I now have to deal with a dog recovering from surgery tomorrow (went tonight, she has to have surgery on her ear and I will have to pick her up tomorrow), my husband is leaving again tomorrow and won’t return until Monday, I have to travel for work this weekend with a four year old. In short, I can’t seem to catch a break.
So, what to do? Well, I have to get this grading done. I really, really do. It is the time of year where I often feel completely overwhelmed because of grading, falling behind, numerous tournaments to travel to in a six week period (which comes with a lot of paperwork, travel planning, etc.) and the seasonal requirements of Halloween prep, then holiday planning. I really wanted to be more on top of things at this point. But, I feel like I often have these periods of total productivity that are interrupted by periods of total loss of anything productive. Today for instance. I feel like I got nothing done at all. There was one problem after another, a student who needed help writing a speech, making lunch between office hours and evening class, then an hour and a half at the vet with the sickly dog, then trying to clean up and help my husband pack tonight. Time spent grading – very little. Time spent doing things that needed to be done – a lot. So, where do I get the time to grade? It always seems to fall to the wayside.
But, I think I’m going to go to bed. I’m going to start going to bed early and getting up early. At night, I’m productive, but I’m also exhausted and slightly burnt out. In the morning, I am fresh and I think I get more done in a more efficient way. At night, I get things done, but I’m not always efficient. I also enjoy the morning time. Fresh coffee (got some Pumpkin Spice flavor today – so looking forward to that), quite house and very little chance anyone will call and interrupt me.
In the long run, I feel like I need to get some kind of grip on my life. Part of it is having a four year old and being by myself with her a lot of the time. I notice that my husband is able to just tune her out and completely ignore that she is demanding things, etc. But, I feel guilty (too many parenting articles read about regretting the time spent on work or other things while you could be spending time with your child) and I give in to paying attention to her and doing things with/for her. And I’m not sure I even regret that – it is just that I don’t get other things done.
I’m also easily distracted by a dirty home – feeling the need to clean and pick up. But, again, I feel like if I don’t do those things, I will go crazy over the clutter and mess that a four year old is constantly making.
So, what to do? I feel like something needs to give in my life right now – and there is only so much flexibility in what can possibly give. I have to get this grading done. I have to take care of my daughter for the next almost week by myself. I have to deal with a dog recovering from surgery this coming week. I have to travel for work this weekend (that actually is the only one that could possibly give – we don’t have a ton of students going, but I have volunteered to help run the tournament on Saturday, so I think I do really need to go). I have to do paperwork for the next trip and get that turned in. I have to make the changes to the rental car and hotel reservations tomorrow (due to a smaller group traveling this weekend). I have to, I have to, I have to.
So, I will do what I can when I can and try to get through it…we’ll see what I can accomplish. I give up on setting goals as I feel like they are never accomplished. So, maybe next Tuesday, I will do a “To-do’s I’ve Done…” or something like that.