I am in need of much grace in my life. But, aren’t we all? I want that clean air feeling to rush into my nostrils and lungs and make me feel empowered and confident. Just like the sea air does when you first encounter it after a long time away. I want to feel the years of guilt and build-up and resentment and more guilt be blown out as I exhale and breathe in that clean, untarnished air of grace.
A sermon not so long ago was given on grace and I remember feeling so positive while listening to the pastor say “Grace is…we don’t have to earn it.” Grace is given by God, but what about giving some to ourselves? What about giving some to others? I am actually much better at giving it to others than I am at giving it to myself. But, I have been trying. I have been trying to forgive myself for all my shortcomings. I have been trying to focus on the good, the positive and the gifts. But, it isn’t easy. It is sometimes so much easier to look into the darkness and see ourselves rather than the light of grace.
Today has been a good day with a bad start. There is so much pain in the world, but there is also so much grace in the world. I watch as others struggle and still others give those struggling individuals a taste of grace. A gift, without expectation. Love without any expectation. That without expectation is an important part of it all and when those gifts and that love comes your way and you can see it is without expectation it is truly glorious. We all have the capacity to give those gifts and that love and to receive it from God and others. But, we have to consciously make the choice to do so.