Starting over is always an option.
I realize that the new year was only six short weeks ago, but I need a do over! So, instead of waiting for the start of another month or even another week, I’m starting over today. I’m not totally sure what this means other than I feel like I am in desperate need of a reset button right now. So, I have been pretty productive the last couple of days – living room is clean. My daughter’s room is clean. The laundry is very close to being totally caught up (I think I can do it tonight, but there may be one or two loads of bedding left depending on my productivity tonight and tomorrow morning). Our bedroom is more or less clean (and has actually stayed pretty clean the past few weeks). Now, I just need to figure out how to keep things less cluttered, more tidy and more on track.
So, I’m starting over with ROUTINES! I am a stubborn, stubborn person. I constantly resist routines. Maybe sometimes it is out of laziness, but mostly I think it is because I am stubborn. I don’t want to give up control. I can get things done without a routine. I can fly by the seat of my pants and I’ve been doing it for years. BUT, I am also a ball of stress with too much on my plate to keep track of it all. I am constantly forgetting things, double scheduling my time, doing things at the last minute and under undo stress. So, in the interest of making all of that STOP and providing my daughter with a bit more structure than she has had recently, I’m going to institute some very general routines. I realize I have talked about this before. But, I have not been at all consistent in forcing myself – and I do mean FORCING myself to actually DO the things in the routine.
But, I am now instituting the routines and will be using the mantra NO EXCUSES for a while. I need to have high expectations for myself and I need to live up to them. Starting NOW.