Today is not a great day. It started off with a poor night of sleep (waking every two hours or less starting at 2:15 a.m.), then my daughter threw up in the car on the way to preschool. Normally, I wouldn’t be too worried (and I probably still should not be), but she has been complaining of headaches the past couple of days and also complained of her stomach hurting this morning. It is probably nothing (and so far seems to be), but it is still just something that weighs on me. In addition, I am behind in grading and catching up is proving difficult as usual (grading is always the worst thing about teaching for me…I just can’t motivate myself to stay with it for long periods of time). I am also feeling that post-Spring Break let-down. I always feel like the Spring semester goes on for so long after Spring Break and sometimes it is difficult to face that long, drawn out time period. Finally, my husband left for an eight day work trip this morning, so I’m on my own for another week. And that is also exhausting to think about.
It is exhausting. I feel like my life is exhausting again. I feel like I go through these cycles…I feel overwhelmed and anxiety-ridden and tired. Then I start to feel like I get a grip on things. I get the house cleaned up. I get somewhat caught up in work (or a semester ends). I feel on top of things. Then, within a very short time, I’m back in the pits again. I am not sure exactly what to do about it.
So, here I am. I guess we’ll see what tomorrow brings. Perhaps I can get out of the hole before long.