Who To Be…What to Do…”Renew Yourself”

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I’m a little pensive today.  As summer begins, I am looking forward to a few months of time on my hands.  Time to think (that I usually don’t have) and time to do things that I WANT to do, instead of just things that I HAVE to do.  But, I feel pressure.  Like I have to figure out what it is that I WANT to do.  I look around and it seems like others have it all figured out.  They are looking forward to camping trips or reading books in the backyard or spending hours poolside or fun outings around town.

But, I feel lost.  I want to read books, but I can’t spend the whole summer doing that.  I want to spend time with Bean, but that will happen inevitably since my husband is gone for seven weeks starting Saturday, leaving Bean and I with plenty of Mommy-daughter time.  I want to work on my professional and personal development – get organized, set up some routines that will work when school rolls around (Bean starts Kindergarten at the end of summer so I feel like it is a whole new ballgame), get prep work done for classes in the Fall, figure out our budgeting, etc., etc.  But, there are so many choices…what should be prioritized?


Well, I wrote all of that this morning.  I’ve remained pretty much the same throughout the day.  I just feel a little…lost…I guess I would say.  But, I went to the thrift store this evening and I bought a few more pairs of shorts, some jean capris and a brand new Gap t-shirt that was there.  I also got a cute pair of shoes.  I’m going to get rid of some of my old shorts, which I hated but held on to because I only had four pairs and needed them.  Now, I can get rid of them.  I then went to Walgreen’s to get some more Lipton tea bags (we ran out of regular this morning and I like to mix those with the fruit infused ones for iced tea) and ended up going a little crazy.  I have been feeling not so great about myself lately and not doing much with my hair, no makeup, slobby clothes.  It is no wonder I don’t feel good about myself.  So, I decided I would get some things to try to change that.  We’ll see how it works out.  I got the following items to perform my pre-summer “renew yourself” (just made that up):

Revlon Revlon Colorsilk Natural Hair Color 11N Ultra Light Natural Blonde – 1 Ea

I was going to go to the beauty school to have my hair cut and colored, but decided to forgo both and just trim my bangs myself (I want to grow my hair out a bit more before getting it cut again, and really it is just the bangs and my cowlick in the back that is driving me crazy) and color it at home.  We’ll see how it turns out.  Often, it makes my hair look much healthier and fuller, so hopefully it satisfies my hair desires.

Organix Hair Spray, Moroccan Sea Salt, 6 Ounce

I have read in a few blog posts and magazine articles about the magic of these sea sprays.  We’ll see if it actually works or if it just makes my hair look dirty and feel crunchy.  I don’t hold a lot of hope, but it was on sale and I was feeling adventurous, so I sprung for it.  Perhaps I will review it in my Thursday Thumbs Up post if it works really well!

OGX Highlight Activating Citrus Oil Mist, Sunkissed Blonde Lemon, 4 Ounce

This is because I feel like my hair color is a bit dull right now.  Between coloring it with the Colorsilk and using this citrus mist, I’m hoping to brighten it up a bit.  I almost bought the old Sun-In Spray-In Hair Lightener, Original – 4.7 fl oz with hydrogen peroxide, but decided that may be worse on my hair in the end.

I also decided to try some new makeup to try to make me look less…well, less old.  I have been using L’Oreal Paris Magic Skin Beautifier BB Cream, Light, 1.0 Ounces and I really liked it. But, then I tried to save some money and got CoverGirl Smoothers SPF 21 Tinted Moisturizer, Fair To Light 805, 1.35 Ounce instead. I don’t like it nearly as much. It does not “beautify” nearly as much as the L’Oreal did. It feels more like makeup and heavier and does not work to make my pores recede the way the L’Oreal did. So, I probably should have just bought some more of the L’Oreal, but they had the Revlon Photo Ready BB Cream Skin Perfector, Light/Medium, 1 oz on sale, so I decided to give it a try. I have to admit the “photo-ready” in the title definitely made me feel like I had to try it. We’ll see just how photo ready it makes me.

So, that was my big “renew yourself” afternoon.  I did not color my hair yet.  I may hold off and just try the citrus spray alone to see what that does before doing the full head of hair coloring.  It may be enough for me.  Tomorrow, I will don new (to me) clothes, new makeup and I may even blow dry my hair to capture the full effect of the citrus spray.  Who knows?  I’m feeling a little crazy…

I do think it will do me good to invest a little time and effort in myself.

Do you ever feel like you aren’t sure who to be or what to do?  What do you do to “renew yourself” every once in a while?  I would love some more ideas, beauty tips (especially ones for the 40+ set), hair ideas for short and somewhat fly away hair, etc.!