Well, I can’t believe another Friday is here already. I feel like I always have about half my week missing when a week finishes. Guess I should do something about that… Today’s prompt is “rise”. So, here goes:
The first thing I thought about when reading the prompt was “He has risen.” and I went and checked the date to make sure this wasn’t an old prompt from Easter time. 🙂 But, no, it isn’t. So, that got be thinking about resurrection and rebirth and clean starts. This has been a really rough time in my life. And I can’t even really define when it started. I think it started when my DD came along and it has just been kind of a roller coaster ride since then. Well, more than a roller coaster ride, a visit to an amusement park. Sometimes I feel like I’m on one of those relaxing, slow-moving rides that have a lot to see that is beautiful or fun, but not a lot of excitement. Those rides are nice after long days of walking and standing in lines and doing roller coasters. Sometimes I feel like I’m in the House of Horrors and although all is dark and quiet for a bit, I know there is always something around the corner that needs to be anticipated. But, even with that knowledge, you’re still scared to death when the thing actually jumps out at you. Nothing can prepare you…even riding the ride over and over, you still have that sense of dread and shock. Sometimes I feel like I’m on a roller coaster and there is good excitement and terrifying, heart-in-your-throat excitement and I want to get off in the middle, but your stuck there until the end. So, I guess rise for me right now is all about rising above this “stuff” that keeps me trapped in the amusement park rides that I don’t want to be on anymore. I want to rise above it and rest.
So, at some point, I have to make that choice to rise up and have a clean start. One that may still include an amusement park ride here and there, but is more livable in between. I’ve been functioning in a space of stress and dread and fear for too long. So, today, I’ll rise up and leave the amusement park!