This week’s prompt is “try”. So…here goes:
I am a big “trier” if there is such a word. I try a lot of things. I try to change things. I try to keep the house clean. I try not to fall behind in getting things done. I try to have routines. The problem is that I am not a succeeder (again, is there such a word?). I try to do things all the time, but I can’t quite succeed. Or at least, not for very long. I was talking to myself today about how much I want Fall to be different (yes, I talk to myself…hopefully that is not going to scare any of you away). I want to be more on top of things. And I admitted that we are a family that totally lacks discipline. I don’t mean that my child is out of control – she’s actually pretty well behaved. I mean that we have no self-discipline. We don’t do things we should. We say we’re going to do things and we don’t follow through. I’m afraid we all have a bit of ADD – we are easily distracted. We have problems finishing things we’ve started. We like to pile things up rather than putting them away. We are…well, lazy, for lack of a better word, about our family obligations.
So, I want to change all that. I don’t want to try to change them. I want to actually change them. I figure I need a RIGID schedule with assigned time to things I want to get done everyday. It sounds painful, but I feel like it is the only way to actually produce anything other than feeble attempts at change. And I NEED change. I know that if I actually got into a routine and got used to doing things on a schedule, I would be fine with it. I would feel better about things. I would get more done. I would enjoy things with my family. I would have time to do things with friends. I would spend less money.
So, I’m letting go of the word “try” this Fall. Instead, I’m going to do. And do. And do. Self-discipline is my focus for Fall.