This 20th day of November, I am rejoining Five Minute Fridays after missing the past couple of weeks. And I haven’t just missed doing them, but I’ve missed being part of the community! So, I’m glad to be back this week for another five minute write. This week’s prompt is “Dwell” and I love the resources that Kate has provided for Advent season. I just realized that our church’s Advent kick off event is this Sunday and I’m so looking forward to it. It also gives me a chance to use this weekend as a “new” start. Yet another “new” start…I need them often it seems.
When I hear the word dwell, I can only think of homes. We dwell in our homes. And right now, my home is not really dwell-worthy. I’ve been struggling. I thought it had only been since our daughter was born six years ago, but earlier today I found a journal from 2001 (14 years ago for those counting) and it all could have been written this year for the most part. I struggle with making my house a home and keeping up with the up-keep. Always. And it makes me tired. I want to dwell in a place that I can sink into. A place I can relax and enjoy and breathe a sigh of relief when I walk into it. But, maybe it isn’t my home so much as me. My home is often a reflection of where I am feeling. If I am feeling in chaos and lost and wandering than my home is a mess, my schedule is a mess, my finances are a mess, etc. If I can get myself grounded and find some order in my life, it spills over to everywhere else.
So, I think I need to stop seeking a “plan” or a “routine” and start seeking a grounding. A firm place to rest. A place to set my eyes and look forward, not necessarily by date and time, but by who I’m supposed to be. By God’s plan, which doesn’t fit in a planner, but instead fits in my heart and my mind. I need to know that my life well spent. I need to feel that I am dwelling in the right place. And that, then, will be reflected in my dwelling place.
Well, there you go. I do like that last couple of lines.