I can’t believe I’m typing this, but Christmas is less than a week away! This is going to be a very low-key Christmas. My hubby works on Christmas Eve and then we’ll drive down to my in-laws on Christmas Day and it will be just us and them for the evening. My DD is pretty excited about the gifts, but not much else. I’ve really tried to get her more into the giving spirit, but not much seems to be working in that area. I have Christmas cards to write and send out this week (some will arrive late, but oh well), but all my shopping is pretty much done. A few more gifts to be bought at my hubby’s work this week and some stocking stuffers and I will be finished. We decided on no adult gifts in my husband’s family this year and instead we are doing a weekend in Monterey, which will be much better than any gift anyways. But, on to my six words…
New year, new focus on me.
I have already started with MYSELF focus for My One Word. I went out and bought some cleaning supplies I have needed for a while and finally got rid of all the nasty cobwebs in my vaulted stairway. Why, oh why, didn’t I do this long ago? It was a $4.99 tool (50% off, but even at full price would have been worth it) and it has already made my house look 100X better. And it makes me feel better. I also went to Goodwill to look for a few books that my DD wanted and I bought myself five nice sweaters because I only had a few sweaters I liked and I was getting tired of wearing the same thing over and over again when it was cold. They are nice sweaters that will be great for work. I got the five sweaters, three books for my DD and a Littlest Pet Shop toy for $38, which is probably half the price that I would have spent on one of the sweaters (because one was actually new with tags from Macy’s). We then went to Barnes and Noble and bought my niece three things. Now, I just need to wrap them and my DD’s gifts and get them under the tree so it looks a little more like Christmas. I also need to get a couple of more things for my sister and my brother-in-law, but I will probably do that at my DH’s work later this week.
I am already getting my calendar together for the new year. I ordered a new planner to use and I’ve got my wall calendar started. I’ve decided to take one day a week for ME – no scheduling anything that I don’t love and enjoy. So, no work meetings, no dentist appointments – just things I really enjoy doing. I’m going to try to take that day off of grading/prep as well and I may even try to go without my phone for the most part (only answer emergency calls or something and not check email, etc.).
So, even now, this all seems a little petty and selfish to me. But, I am tired. And I don’t feel like my family works as a team. My daughter tried to “make a deal with me” today about not shopping for her when we went out. As if she were in a position to make a deal with me about not buying her something while we were out. And obviously, I did end up buying her something at the thrift store. But, she definitely made some indications that she thought I was going to buy her something at Barnes and Noble and I did not. We shopped for her cousin and that was it. But, I’m still feeling a bit like a pushover in this instance. I love my DD and she is a very loving person, but she is definitely leaning towards some entitlement issues and I want her to be a Giver not a Gimme. But, my modeling that for her (being a giver to her constantly) is definitely not helping the situation. I need to be a Gimme sometimes in life I guess. Even though that seems counterintuitive to who I want to be as a person.
I would love to hear some feedback on teaching my DD how to be more of a giver. I would love to hear some feedback on how to work on making my family work as a team rather than being codependent.