Six Word Saturday

Six Word Saturday -Summer is Coming

Joining up at Six Word Saturday over at Show My Face.

Summer is Coming.  End in Sight.

That is basically my mantra these days.  I have four weeks left.  Three weeks at one campus and four weeks at the other.  And then I have some time “off”.  I put that in quotation marks, because although I won’t be teaching and coaching during that time, I have a lot of things I would like to get done.  But, it is so nice to not have to prep for class, go teach and grade.  It really does make a huge difference.

Five Minute Friday, Uncategorized

Five Minute Friday – Pass

Participating in Five Minute Friday over at Heading Home again this week.  This week’s prompt is “Pass”.

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So, here goes:

At this time of year, “pass” is all tied up in grading for me.  I am a teacher, after all and we are nearing the end of the semester.  I consider myself to be a decent teacher.  I’m not great…yet.  But, I’m working on it and I think I do a pretty good job right now.  But, some of my classes are doing pretty poorly.  It is always a question as to whether their pass and failure rate are a reflection of you as an instructor or them as students.  In the end, it is probably a combination.   As the saying goes, you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make them drink.  I am someone who believes that you can make the water a little more appetizing to them.  You can even give them a way to drink that makes it easier for them to access the water.  But, in the end, you really can’t force it down their throats.  But, it is my goal to do more in my teaching to make the water attractive and to make it easier for them to drink.  I guess I want to be able to make them so thirsty, they can’t possibly turn the water down.

It is not easy though.  I need to improve.  I need to be more engaged.  I need to have a better plan and strategies and activities.  So, this summer will be somewhat dedicated to just that.  But, I’m excited about these changes.  I’m excited about the possibility of serving up water to thirsty students who WANT to drink it down!

 

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Thumbs Up Thursday #25

Just stopping by before heading to bed to give a few Thumbs Up this Thursday!

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First, PBS.  Oh, how I love thee, PBS.  You are the soft spot for me to land on when desperate for television, but unable to deal with the reality of TV.  Not just reality TV, although I do detest reality TV in almost every form, but also the reality of TV.  There is not a whole lot that I enjoy watching nowadays (geez, I sound 90).  But, with PBS, I can usually find something worthwhile.  While in Indiana, I watched WIPB every single night as I was dealing with the time change and exhaustion of a tournament.  I learned a lot those evenings.  Tonight I am watching Ken Burns’ National Parks and loving it.  I have been inspired to put visiting every National Park on my bucket list.  I already had thought about it when Bean was a toddler, because we visited Lassen National Park, which is near where we live and she got a passport book for the National Parks.  We have since lost that passport book (which she kind of destroyed – she was going through her “must scribble on every page of every book I own” phase at that point), but we can always get another.  And I would love to fill it all in WITH her.  But, back to PBS.  It is a relatively quiet space.  It offers all that I love – documentaries, British mysteries, British dramas, British comedies, safe children’s shows, local shows.  It is truly the best of the best.  So, thanks PBS!

Second, not being a first grade teacher.  I volunteer in my DD’s classroom on Thursdays.  I only stay for an hour or slightly more than an hour.  And each and every time I go (and when I go on field trips), I am reminded why God stopped me from going into elementary school teaching when I thought about it years ago.  WOW.  First grade teachers are truly amazing.  Seriously.  Can’t say this enough.

Good weeks.  I don’t have them very often. But this week has been a STELLAR week.  I found out that I got my step advancement at work!  And that was on top of the contract we agreed to after the threatened strike got us a better deal than we thought we would get.  In addition, the Great Debate went spectacularly last Friday.  AND we made the news for that and our press release on nationals went live.  AND we won a Civic Engagement award on our campus.  AND we aren’t in a hospital room (my DD’s surgery, for those following along and wondering what the heck happened, was delayed due to rhinovirus, or common cold).  All these are good things!

So, that’s it for this week.  I can only hope that next week is even close to as good.  How was your week?  Any Thumbs Up to give?  Please comment with them!  Good news is good stuff.

Health and Caregiving, Uncategorized

Tired but Wired

This is often my state of mind.  “Tired but Wired.”  I should make t-shirts.

So, what does this mean.  Well, I’m exhausted most of the time.  I work a job and a half (well, really a job and three quarters).  I take care of most of the household chores on a day-to-day basis.  I manage appointments and scheduling because I am the one with the busy schedule.  I don’t want to paint my DH out to be lazy.  He has a couple of jobs, but those jobs are long distance and highly intense for short bursts of time.  They are also jobs that I would say suffer from Parkinson’s Law – so, given deadlines, the work would be done in less time, but because it is often done without near-term deadlines, it expands to fill a lot of his time.  My job is more defined – I have teaching hours, office hours and then hours that I spend doing grading, prep, etc. but those are when I can fit them in.  My job suffers a bit from Parkinson’s Law as well.  So, we’re both working at home quite a bit.  Too much, in fact.

So, anyways, I am often feeling exhausted from everything I’ve had to do in a day AND staring down the barrel of a to-do list that is far too long to ever complete in the time provided for it.  I feel behind quite a bit of the time.  I often struggle with what I should be doing.  For example, right now, there are three loads of laundry piled up in our living room needing to be folded and put away, a load of dishes to unload from the dishwasher and more dishes waiting to go in, a mess on the dining room table to that needs to be dealt with (thrown away, put away, etc.) AND a pile of grading in my work bag that is late being handed back.  I currently can’t locate my video camera that has some presentations on it I need to grade.  I have an iPad that needs to be restored to make it functional.  And my in-laws are coming for the weekend and their bed in the guest room needs to be made.  I need to clean the bathrooms.  The list goes on and on.  And this is not unique.  This is my daily operating.  And that list of things makes me WIRED.  I feel tense and anxious and like I need to be constantly DOING.  But, I’m also TIRED.  Yesterday was my 13 hour day (with one two hour break in there) and I have a headache and my back hurts and I just want to curl up with a TV show and recover.  But, I teach in three and a half hours and I volunteer in my DD’s classroom in an hour.  And…and…and…

So, yeah, I ‘m both tired and wired.  I’m exhausted but anxious.  And I feel a little stuck.  I do have summer coming in a month.  During summer, I am mostly wired.  I get bored easily and feel like I NEED to be doing things.  But, I also don’t get much done.  It is a strange set of circumstances.  But, this summer, I plan to be more purposeful in REST and in WORK.  So, I’m going to plan times for both. I need to work on a course redesign I got a grant for and I have a few other projects I would like to get done during the summer.  But, I also realize that I need to have some DOWN time.  When I’m not working on anything.  When I can just decompress.  Sleep.  Relax.  Read.  Enjoy.  If I am not purposeful about that, the summer will be gone and I will still feel just tired and wired.  I want to feel rejuvenated and purposeful instead.  It isn’t quite as poetic, but it sure would feel better.

Tuesday Truth

Tuesday Truths

I’m jumping in with some Tuesday Truths this week.  Just tryin’ to keep it real…and truthful!

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My first truth this week is ANTIBIOTICS ARE AWESOME!  I woke up yesterday morning at 1 a.m. with a terrible pain in my throat.  Having gone many years in college getting strep throat multiple times a year, I recognized the feeling immediately.  I tried to ignore it thinking maybe it was allergies (they’ve been bad here), fell asleep again for a while, but woke at 3:30 a.m. with even worse pain.  At 4 a.m., I took a Tylenol and started planning my day with cancelling classes and office hours, going to the prompt care clinic and getting this taken care of ASAP.  With an immune-suppressed child (tonsilless thank goodness, I think that makes the strep less likely to take hold, but still) and a national travel trip with 15 students scheduled on Wednesday, I could take no chances.  I got up and started sending emails, dealing with planning, and as soon as I dropped my DD off at school, drove over to the prompt care clinic.  Within an hour, I had tested positive for strep, got a steroid to help with the inflammation and pain, and dropped off my prescription.  Within three hours, I had taken my first antibiotic in a 10 day, 3X a day protocol and settled in for a nap.  By the time I picked up my DD, the stabbing pain had turned to a dull ache.  I was still achy and exhausted, but felt much better already.  This morning, I woke up and am feeling GREAT!  So, yes, antibiotics are awesome!!!

My second truth is God is Good!  I know, I know.  It is a bit cliche.  But, I’ve seen Him working in my life in so many ways this year already.  Life is certainly not all smooth sailing, but His hand touches so many things in so many ways that I don’t always notice.  And this “season”, while starting out tough with news of surgery, financial concerns and job anxiety, has turned into so much goodness.  The surgery is on and I’m thankful that we are with an insurance that doesn’t question the pacemaker placement even though my DD has not been symptomatic (I read a thread online where multiple people had been told no).  I’m thankful I have a job that I can get people to cover for me and make adjustments where necessary when things like this surgery pop up.  I got a raise at my current job, where I would really prefer to stay, so I’ve decided not to apply for the other job (which was a stress in my life, mostly because of insurance concerns).  I also got a grant for revising a class that is going to be really exciting to work on next year.  And I’ve got ideas and plans and exciting possibilities for the coming years!  And I can see where God has had a hand in all those things.  So, I am feeling extremely thankful.

My last truth this Tuesday is travel is stressful.  I THINK I have all the logistics of this trip handled.  Luckily, my DH moved up his return flight today so he got back a couple of hours ago.  Originally, he was scheduled to arrive back home around Midnight and I was scheduled to leave at 3 a.m.  That’s stressful.  Today, he had a two hour delay.  If that would have happened tonight, I would have been a basket case.  So, much better.  I’ve got all the rental cars and we actually ended up with a truck, which will be much easier to fit all the luggage in (as long as it doesn’t rain, which it is projected to earlier in the night – but I will bring some big towels to throw down under luggage and hopefully it will suffice). One of the students was notified he has mono this afternoon, so I had to cancel him.  He was really upset and still wanted to go, but I told him if he put his body through the 3 a.m. departure, time change and long days of a tournament, he might not make it through the semester when he gets back. Mono can be rough and I think he isn’t feeling it right now, but he DEFINITELY would be if he went through this trip.  So, I said no.  So, now there are only 14 students going…but that is still the largest group I’ve ever flown with.  So, it is a bit stressful.  But, seems to be going okay so far.

 

 

Six Word Saturday

Six Word Saturday –

Joining up with Six Word Saturday this week.

Travel hopes are high.  No Whammies!

This weekend I am getting ready for a trip to Indiana with more students than I’ve ever taken before.  The logistics for the trip are like an LSAT problem and I’m dealing with some anxiety over the trip (as I always do, but with 20 people traveling, the stakes seem higher this time).  Last year at this same tournament, I had the worst trip I’ve ever had.  Two hotel issues (that were totally my doing), a problem with the advance (again, my doing)…I guess that was all but that was enough to scar me.  Luckily, I was only traveling with two students, so the problems were easy enough to deal with.  With 20, that would definitely not be the case.

So, I’ve been trying to double and triple check all the plans, but I still feel totally anxious.  I have not been sleeping great and I have a ton of grading and cleaning and such to do before I leave on Wednesday morning VERRRRRRY early (like 3 am early).

That’s the other part of this equation.  My husband is currently in FL for work.  He will get back around 11 p.m. on Tuesday night.  I will leave at 3 am on Wednesday morning.  We did this same thing last year (tournament schedules are usually very similar year-to-year), but last year was when all hell broke loose with my DD’s meds and we switched to pills and she wouldn’t take them for me and then I left and my DH got her to take the meds fine but when I got back she started having these horrible anxiety attacks about school.  It ended up being her med levels because of the switch from liquid to pills, but the whole experience with the traumatic days leading up to my departure with the pills, then the problems while I was traveling, then coming back to these horrible anxiety attacks…it is making me even more anxious about this year.  Sigh…

So, in a way.  This year HAS to be better.  Right?

Five Minute Friday, Uncategorized

Five Minute Friday – Whole

I am back to participate once again in Five Minute Friday over at Heading Home.  Right now, this seems to be the only consistent thing I’m doing each week.  At least there is one.

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This week’s prompt is “whole” – here goes:

Being a whole person is tough.  This morning at my MOPS group we did a personality test and discussion with colors.  I noticed that it was very difficult for a lot of us (including me) because the categories used to describe ourselves were limited in the “quiz” and we all thought it was only recognizing “part” of who we are.  We like to consider our “whole” selves when looking at our personalities and highlighting only parts makes us anxious.  Because we don’t like all the “parts” of ourselves, but when looking holistically, we are more comfortable.

I get it.  There are parts of me I would like to forget about.  But, when we finished the “quiz” and added up our scores and read the descriptions of what it meant to our personalities, we all agreed it was pretty descriptive.  So, what does this mean?  It means that all those parts – even the ones we don’t especially like to recognize, make up who we are.  And no one likes EVERYTHING about ourselves, but hopefully, we learn to like our WHOLE selves.  And unfortunately, we often focus on parts of ourselves and how to get rid of them….our weight.  Our lack of organization.  Our too rigid organization.  Etc, etc.  But, I really do think that when we focus on our whole selves, we can start to embrace who we REALLY are.  Not who we are in one aspect.  That is like saying we are our foot.  It is one small part of us, but it is not the whole of us and we have so much more to offer.

So, let’s look at our whole selves and celebrate who we are as whole people.  And, let’s do the same for others.

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I am not just these feet!  🙂