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Thumbs Up Thursday #25

Just stopping by before heading to bed to give a few Thumbs Up this Thursday!

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First, PBS.  Oh, how I love thee, PBS.  You are the soft spot for me to land on when desperate for television, but unable to deal with the reality of TV.  Not just reality TV, although I do detest reality TV in almost every form, but also the reality of TV.  There is not a whole lot that I enjoy watching nowadays (geez, I sound 90).  But, with PBS, I can usually find something worthwhile.  While in Indiana, I watched WIPB every single night as I was dealing with the time change and exhaustion of a tournament.  I learned a lot those evenings.  Tonight I am watching Ken Burns’ National Parks and loving it.  I have been inspired to put visiting every National Park on my bucket list.  I already had thought about it when Bean was a toddler, because we visited Lassen National Park, which is near where we live and she got a passport book for the National Parks.  We have since lost that passport book (which she kind of destroyed – she was going through her “must scribble on every page of every book I own” phase at that point), but we can always get another.  And I would love to fill it all in WITH her.  But, back to PBS.  It is a relatively quiet space.  It offers all that I love – documentaries, British mysteries, British dramas, British comedies, safe children’s shows, local shows.  It is truly the best of the best.  So, thanks PBS!

Second, not being a first grade teacher.  I volunteer in my DD’s classroom on Thursdays.  I only stay for an hour or slightly more than an hour.  And each and every time I go (and when I go on field trips), I am reminded why God stopped me from going into elementary school teaching when I thought about it years ago.  WOW.  First grade teachers are truly amazing.  Seriously.  Can’t say this enough.

Good weeks.  I don’t have them very often. But this week has been a STELLAR week.  I found out that I got my step advancement at work!  And that was on top of the contract we agreed to after the threatened strike got us a better deal than we thought we would get.  In addition, the Great Debate went spectacularly last Friday.  AND we made the news for that and our press release on nationals went live.  AND we won a Civic Engagement award on our campus.  AND we aren’t in a hospital room (my DD’s surgery, for those following along and wondering what the heck happened, was delayed due to rhinovirus, or common cold).  All these are good things!

So, that’s it for this week.  I can only hope that next week is even close to as good.  How was your week?  Any Thumbs Up to give?  Please comment with them!  Good news is good stuff.

Health and Caregiving, Uncategorized

Tired but Wired

This is often my state of mind.  “Tired but Wired.”  I should make t-shirts.

So, what does this mean.  Well, I’m exhausted most of the time.  I work a job and a half (well, really a job and three quarters).  I take care of most of the household chores on a day-to-day basis.  I manage appointments and scheduling because I am the one with the busy schedule.  I don’t want to paint my DH out to be lazy.  He has a couple of jobs, but those jobs are long distance and highly intense for short bursts of time.  They are also jobs that I would say suffer from Parkinson’s Law – so, given deadlines, the work would be done in less time, but because it is often done without near-term deadlines, it expands to fill a lot of his time.  My job is more defined – I have teaching hours, office hours and then hours that I spend doing grading, prep, etc. but those are when I can fit them in.  My job suffers a bit from Parkinson’s Law as well.  So, we’re both working at home quite a bit.  Too much, in fact.

So, anyways, I am often feeling exhausted from everything I’ve had to do in a day AND staring down the barrel of a to-do list that is far too long to ever complete in the time provided for it.  I feel behind quite a bit of the time.  I often struggle with what I should be doing.  For example, right now, there are three loads of laundry piled up in our living room needing to be folded and put away, a load of dishes to unload from the dishwasher and more dishes waiting to go in, a mess on the dining room table to that needs to be dealt with (thrown away, put away, etc.) AND a pile of grading in my work bag that is late being handed back.  I currently can’t locate my video camera that has some presentations on it I need to grade.  I have an iPad that needs to be restored to make it functional.  And my in-laws are coming for the weekend and their bed in the guest room needs to be made.  I need to clean the bathrooms.  The list goes on and on.  And this is not unique.  This is my daily operating.  And that list of things makes me WIRED.  I feel tense and anxious and like I need to be constantly DOING.  But, I’m also TIRED.  Yesterday was my 13 hour day (with one two hour break in there) and I have a headache and my back hurts and I just want to curl up with a TV show and recover.  But, I teach in three and a half hours and I volunteer in my DD’s classroom in an hour.  And…and…and…

So, yeah, I ‘m both tired and wired.  I’m exhausted but anxious.  And I feel a little stuck.  I do have summer coming in a month.  During summer, I am mostly wired.  I get bored easily and feel like I NEED to be doing things.  But, I also don’t get much done.  It is a strange set of circumstances.  But, this summer, I plan to be more purposeful in REST and in WORK.  So, I’m going to plan times for both. I need to work on a course redesign I got a grant for and I have a few other projects I would like to get done during the summer.  But, I also realize that I need to have some DOWN time.  When I’m not working on anything.  When I can just decompress.  Sleep.  Relax.  Read.  Enjoy.  If I am not purposeful about that, the summer will be gone and I will still feel just tired and wired.  I want to feel rejuvenated and purposeful instead.  It isn’t quite as poetic, but it sure would feel better.