Five Minute Friday

Five Minute Friday – Still

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What an appropriate prompt as I post on this blog for the first time in a long time.  I am “still” here!  I am “still” struggling to find time and ideas and motivation to write on this public space, even though at times I have loved it and found comfort in it.  I am “still” being hard on myself for never sticking with things in my life that I set a goal or make a commitment to do.  I am “still” struggling to keep my life on track and my home organized.  But, I am also “still” being a mom to a little girl with a heart transplant, working a full-time job and another part-time job, leading a Girl Scout troop (who are not Brownies and Juniors) and keeping a home (just barely).   I am “still” looking at a dining room table piled high with things to deal with and put away instead of being a lovely place to eat our meals together.  I am “still” looking at a work bag full of papers to grade.  I am “still” looking at a calendar that is packed with too many things, none of which I don’t want to do, but all of which make me feel tired to think about.  I am “still” eating out too often and trying to find the magic words to create a life of peaceful routines and energy to do it all.  I am “still” missing my mom, who passed away two years ago (Kate’s post today really brought that back).  I am “still” feeling like I could do so much more and so much better in life, but I “still” don’t know exactly how to do that.

So many things change, but so many things “still” remain.

 

2 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday – Still”

  1. Oh wow. I just popped over from my spot next to you on FMF #34 and knew God brought me right here to pray for you in the middle of this messy busy time in your life. I can relate to so much of what you shared – just not in this season as I’m probably 15 years ahead of you! Thank you for sharing your “still” moments and know that I am praying. May you find a quiet moment to know that you are still loved by the King of Kings.

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  2. hi sue:) nice to meet you. i have children your age…give or take. your description of your life and surroundings reminded me of mine. until yesterday, my living room has looked like a bomb hit it. the dining table didn’t look much better:( i just couldn’t seem to attack them. finally made it tho’…after weeks of letting them sit!
    i have had to learn to live with my brokenness. i hate it. I can’t seem to keep up with my visions and creative dreams. cleaning gets done…eventually. writing encourages me and sometimes others too. so i keep plugging on. it will never be pretty or particularly neat.
    Mixing in grief and hard events just slows you down. accept GOD’s forgiveness and keep moving. the things that need to be done will get down. blessings girl:)

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