Will I ever get it together?
That, my friends, is what I feel like this week. And, in reading some of what I wrote three and two and one year ago, it is what I feel like a lot of the time. I try to do self-help, organizing, decluttering, etc. projects constantly and nothing sticks. I feel like I can pull it together short term and then I just get tired and can’t follow through. What is my problem?
I know I need the following things in my life to truly get it together:
1) A routine/family schedule that includes the following items:
- Meal plan
- Chore list
2) A budget.
Really, those two things would do wonders toward me getting it together, whatever IT is. I have a calendar hanging on our wall that no one much checks other than me and often I will forget to write things on there because I put it in my Google calendar or something. I’ve been trying to follow a plan where at the end of each month (so today for example) I sit with the wall calendar and my Google calendar and “sync” everything so-to-speak. But, mid-month, things fall through the cracks. I don’t really exercise. We are constantly eating out despite having tons of food in our fridge, freezer and pantry – often a lot of that food goes bad before we eat it. I am the only one who does stuff around the house on a regular basis. And I get bogged down in other things or leave on a work trip and the whole house becomes a $#%* show. I’m not kidding. Garbage piles up on the floor and every flat surface (because Lord knows that walking the five feet to the garbage can to throw away a fruit treat wrapper or a fast food wrapper would be overly onerous). Clothes are EVERY where – on the living room floor, bathroom floors, bedroom floors, piled up in the laundry room. I don’t even know what is clean and dirty sometimes. Dishes get left everywhere. It is seriously like I live with people who were raised by wolves – and I’m currently raising one of them. So, what does that make me? So, I need a new plan. I need a new determination and discipline. I need some motivation for myself and others…ideas would be appreciated.
The budget thing is a whole other beast. Both my husband and I are impulsive spenders. We have some things we plan for, but nothing is ever budgeted out. We just spend money until we run out pretty much. And we end up with a lot of stuff we don’t need/want. So, that contributes to my overwhelm in the first department – cluttered living conditions. But, every time I try to set up a budget I realize just how much we overspend, get depressed and just give up. I vow to stop spending, but don’t really do it and so, here I am. I must admit that I’m also one of those people who feel like I “deserve” things because I work a lot. But, I don’t realize how many “things” I have/get. So, yeah.
I need a counselor…that’s what I really need. Or a life coach. A serious, kick-me-in-the-butt, make-me-do-what-I-don’t-want-to-do life coach. Volunteers?